Tuesday July 10, 2007
I've been thinking.
The iPhone is cool, but only so useful. It's a phone and an iPod, despite it's nearly 1GHz processor and 8GB storage space. I need something that would allow me to SSH into my servers to manage them. I need storage encryption. I need quite a few things that are simply missing from the iPhone. On a personal note, I feel like crap.
I'm pretty good at internalizing my crap. In fact, I'm very good at it. My routine is to hold it all in until I burst, which happens roughly once every two weeks. At such a point I usually cry myself to sleep, a process that takes about 45 minutes to an hour.
I don't feel better afterwards.
The combination of frustration, anger, hopelessness, desparation, and general sadness overwhelm. Frustration at a lack of forward progress, anger that I have to be this way, generic non-specific hopelessness, desparation as I can not wait, and sadness at lost friends. There isn't much I can do down here for fun.
I've been intoduced to casinos. My first time and I left with $15 more than I went in with. One of my room-mates left $200 richer than she went in. All-in-all, much fun.
Stress down here is running high—there's drama at the house as local workers continue to refuse to do what they're told and instead do the exact opposite. So much stress, I've had my first cigarette, and I've discovered that it gives me the exact same dizzy-buzz that MJ did, back in the day. I know I shouldn't smoke, but one probably can't do too much harm.
So, the iPhone is ultimate cool in cellular phones. The OQO is ultimate cool in UMPCs. I'm thinking I need both. In theory, the iPhone could do everything I want—it is a full 600MHz+ ARM computer.
We'll see.