Monday May 28, 2007
A Week of "Lasts"
In under one week I will be moving to Panama. This excites and distresses me simultaneously. While I know I will be returning in three months, if only for a short time, and only to return to Panama, I can't shake the feeling that this week is a week of "lasts".
This week I have gone to the last cinema with family and friends. This week I will be saying farewell to such friends as I still have. I've taken my last picture here, as shown on the right. I've gone for my last long walk. I've played my last Playstation game with my sister. Tamara, a friend I've only just gotten back in contact with, and I will be going shopping for the last time before I leave.
Rinii, Coulter, and Adam are long gone. Taryn, as of one week ago, is set up for schooling in Ireland. Saying goodbye to Neil was hard—the not insignifigant romantic part of me wanted to kiss him and let the tears flow. I hate being this… infernally confused.
Keeping in contact has never been my forté, and I've had to say goodbye to too many who won't be here when I return.
Will I still consider this house home three months from now?
One thing is sure—this won't be the last night I cry myself to sleep.
— Alice.